Been very emo lately... Kept thinking a lot of stuff.. However, this kind of stuff, better I keep it to myself.. I dun wanna lose anybody, bored anyone nor wanna think about this stuff any longer..
Seems like everything is hiding behind shadow.. I wonder why.. I think, maybe is becos, ....................................................... I dunno la.............
TITAS.................................................................
PROGRAMMING!!!!!!!!!!!...............................
UMS SEJATI??!!!!............................................
E-COMMERCEZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................
4 more papers to go.. feels like years.. hate the drag... Makes everything even zzzzzzzzzzzzz.......
I just wanna go home...
Maybe going home isn't such a good place too..
I wanna fly....
Ya..tat's right...
That is what I wan...
Fly away~
p/s: Have I informed that I am emo-ing?
If given the chance, will you choose the one that have the courage to give u the ultimate promise but will most probably break it anyway, or the one that dun have the courage to give u the promise but is actually fulfilling his promise...
Honestly, I have never felt so angry, disappointed and frustrated with something so much before.
Just when I have found back my strength and happily begin to enjoy the life in university, the past had come back and it haunts me even greater than before. I feel so tired. For those time of which seemed like hell to me, all the heartache and frustration and tiredness that I have felt, all of those are expected of me from him to totally wipe out and restore with new sense of security and trust. What is the logic of all that? I am reali angry when I can feel that my principles are being violated becos it shows that the person does not respect me at all. I feel like I have suffered for nothing becos now, I seemed to be still stuck in the same suffering. I feel mentally exhausted and dry. I feel like screaming as loud as I can. Enough of all the mental torture!!!
I put whole my heart in seeing things and in my evaluation of things in my life and also to people ion my life. I dun talk nonsense and hate and loathe very much of dishonest and untrue words. Let me tell you something, before this, u had treated me like rubbish now u are wanting me back as a diamond and expect to shine as ever before? Can u even forgive urself? Before this, I have told you many, many, MANY words and all of everything, did u accept with all ur heart? Now you wanna regret?
I hate every moment that u had put me through and putting me through right now. I hated so much that I feel like dying to end the suffering that I am feeling so much deep in myheart. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have found a considerate and a caring guy. A guy who I think I am able to accept and to love again. However, this time I have restrain myself from thinking too much and putting so much in it unlike in the past. We have started the journey and i appreciate every support and care that he had given me. I dun wanna lose anything that I have now becos of my past, whether it is my studies, myself, my life, my friends or him, as we haven't even get the chance to reali know each other yet and he adey need to keep being patient for my frustrated self and being helpless as he can't help me with anything. I wanna change into a better person. I wanna reali put my heart into life as a university student. I wanna finally put my energy into chasing and focusing on my OWN life instead other person's. I had put my all, my hope, my dreams, my advices, support and encouragement into u and of everything that we both had before, in the end, what do i get? A constant and repetitive remainder of wat a failure, sucking and waste of time, of a girl I am to u. Until now, ur blame is still on me. U even said I am the one that had caused u to be so cruel and enjoy so much of my begging, chasing back of u and of the humiliation that I was suffering at tat time.
A waste of my time and energy as I would consider all that u had given me after we have broken up. I have told u, many times before, never ever take something for granted and always remember that missing a person is a blessing instead of letting urself to suffer. U dun agree. Now look at you. Take a good look at urself. When do u wanna wake up? When do u wanna grow up?
When do u, finally grow up into A MAN? I dun wanna pour so mucha anymore. I dun have the energy to let out anything. All I know is that it is reali ENOUGH. ENOUGH! I just wanna be who I am and to soar high towards my dream, the dream that I have had and still holding on to since I was in my childhood. I am now at my starting point. It is up to me to soar to my destination. Enough of all the ridiculous stuff. Stop wasting ur time. There are so many beautiful and wonderful dreams that u can grab and make them come true. Love (between couple) isn't everything. We have so much more that we should care about. We have countless responsibilities that we are supposed to attend to.
Stop ruining urself for a girl that u had once said is damn ridiculous till u've thrown before. No use to pick back up a rubbish that u had thrown away. No use to cry over spilled milk. No use to say how much I mean to u. I am adey ruined. I am in pieces now as I have been shattered by you. I have nothing, that I can give u anymore. All I want is to stand up tall and to chase each and every of my dreams. All the dreams and hope that I once had with you, are all had already buried deep in my heart along with all the memories, promises and everything. As part of me, as my history.
Dun say I am being cruel, becos it is imposibble for me to be cruel enough to part of me. If you reali love me, u should have moved on. Proven that u have always love urself more than me.
Just when I have found back my strength and happily begin to enjoy the life in university, the past had come back and it haunts me even greater than before. I feel so tired. For those time of which seemed like hell to me, all the heartache and frustration and tiredness that I have felt, all of those are expected of me from him to totally wipe out and restore with new sense of security and trust. What is the logic of all that? I am reali angry when I can feel that my principles are being violated becos it shows that the person does not respect me at all. I feel like I have suffered for nothing becos now, I seemed to be still stuck in the same suffering. I feel mentally exhausted and dry. I feel like screaming as loud as I can. Enough of all the mental torture!!!
I put whole my heart in seeing things and in my evaluation of things in my life and also to people ion my life. I dun talk nonsense and hate and loathe very much of dishonest and untrue words. Let me tell you something, before this, u had treated me like rubbish now u are wanting me back as a diamond and expect to shine as ever before? Can u even forgive urself? Before this, I have told you many, many, MANY words and all of everything, did u accept with all ur heart? Now you wanna regret?
I hate every moment that u had put me through and putting me through right now. I hated so much that I feel like dying to end the suffering that I am feeling so much deep in myheart. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have found a considerate and a caring guy. A guy who I think I am able to accept and to love again. However, this time I have restrain myself from thinking too much and putting so much in it unlike in the past. We have started the journey and i appreciate every support and care that he had given me. I dun wanna lose anything that I have now becos of my past, whether it is my studies, myself, my life, my friends or him, as we haven't even get the chance to reali know each other yet and he adey need to keep being patient for my frustrated self and being helpless as he can't help me with anything. I wanna change into a better person. I wanna reali put my heart into life as a university student. I wanna finally put my energy into chasing and focusing on my OWN life instead other person's. I had put my all, my hope, my dreams, my advices, support and encouragement into u and of everything that we both had before, in the end, what do i get? A constant and repetitive remainder of wat a failure, sucking and waste of time, of a girl I am to u. Until now, ur blame is still on me. U even said I am the one that had caused u to be so cruel and enjoy so much of my begging, chasing back of u and of the humiliation that I was suffering at tat time.
A waste of my time and energy as I would consider all that u had given me after we have broken up. I have told u, many times before, never ever take something for granted and always remember that missing a person is a blessing instead of letting urself to suffer. U dun agree. Now look at you. Take a good look at urself. When do u wanna wake up? When do u wanna grow up?
When do u, finally grow up into A MAN? I dun wanna pour so mucha anymore. I dun have the energy to let out anything. All I know is that it is reali ENOUGH. ENOUGH! I just wanna be who I am and to soar high towards my dream, the dream that I have had and still holding on to since I was in my childhood. I am now at my starting point. It is up to me to soar to my destination. Enough of all the ridiculous stuff. Stop wasting ur time. There are so many beautiful and wonderful dreams that u can grab and make them come true. Love (between couple) isn't everything. We have so much more that we should care about. We have countless responsibilities that we are supposed to attend to.
Stop ruining urself for a girl that u had once said is damn ridiculous till u've thrown before. No use to pick back up a rubbish that u had thrown away. No use to cry over spilled milk. No use to say how much I mean to u. I am adey ruined. I am in pieces now as I have been shattered by you. I have nothing, that I can give u anymore. All I want is to stand up tall and to chase each and every of my dreams. All the dreams and hope that I once had with you, are all had already buried deep in my heart along with all the memories, promises and everything. As part of me, as my history.
Dun say I am being cruel, becos it is imposibble for me to be cruel enough to part of me. If you reali love me, u should have moved on. Proven that u have always love urself more than me.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya, ya, I know, I know.. I am being kind of outdated (mainly reason is becos I ni bukannya datang daripada keluarga yang kaya pun and I ni memang tak biasa keluar selalu kerana mempunyai Ibu Bapa yang agak konservatif^^), but I have just finished watching Wall-E. I love it. I dun care whoever had criticise this animation before becos I reali love it! I love the messages that the animation was produced to convey especially the part about our beloved earth, interactions and relationships between individuals, and of course, about falling in love. I seriously love it. It was meaningful, added with a bit of humour, sweet feelings, and a bit of many things in life. That is what life is about. Sweet, sour, bitter and all the sugar and spices and .... Okok, I sounded hyper. I love movies like this. Although it doesn't have much dialougue, it is enough as it is packed with messages and meaningful scenes. Even a simple gesture means a lot^^ (well, that is, if you always think a lot and always do and see things wholeheartly, even when watching movie, like me..hahaha)
It also has a mocking message which is that, even robots have sense of compassion and humanity, why is it getting difficult for human to have those?! Even robots wanna save the earth, what about human! Trying to pile our earth with rubbish then thinking of ways to run away from earth, with extra efforts going on now, trying desperately searching for another planet?!!! There is always chances in life. Grab it, and do something for our beloved earth.
And hahaha, I gotta make a confession. Another main reason why I love this movie is becos I kinda thought that I am a person with characters similiar to as of Eva's (the lead female robot in the animation)... ^^ And I am so jealous of her! She has her Wall-E! While me.. hahaha... No worries, I am adey on my way to search for my own "Wall-E" though I know it is going to be tough... Extremely tough. To find the one that even if got struck by lightning, under the freezing weather, when things seem hopeless and dun matter what, still stay beside his Eva, sounds mission impossible... Hahaha, dun get me wrong, I dun hope my beloved guy is a superman that wanna just stand there if there's lightning. Plea-se, just hide in the building la, we're human =.= . What I mean is kinda a metaphore to the situations that Wall-E and Eva had face and go through and had. Ya, I know, human are all are clever people but sometimes there are some certain people that like to laugh at my words and tease me that I gotta cover up every part of my words. ^^ I labelled them as my friends with the word naughty. XD
Feeling cold now, raining and the room's air cond is .......f-r-e-e-z-i-n-g! Oh ya, I am at KK now.. Might be posting about this soon~
It also has a mocking message which is that, even robots have sense of compassion and humanity, why is it getting difficult for human to have those?! Even robots wanna save the earth, what about human! Trying to pile our earth with rubbish then thinking of ways to run away from earth, with extra efforts going on now, trying desperately searching for another planet?!!! There is always chances in life. Grab it, and do something for our beloved earth.
And hahaha, I gotta make a confession. Another main reason why I love this movie is becos I kinda thought that I am a person with characters similiar to as of Eva's (the lead female robot in the animation)... ^^ And I am so jealous of her! She has her Wall-E! While me.. hahaha... No worries, I am adey on my way to search for my own "Wall-E" though I know it is going to be tough... Extremely tough. To find the one that even if got struck by lightning, under the freezing weather, when things seem hopeless and dun matter what, still stay beside his Eva, sounds mission impossible... Hahaha, dun get me wrong, I dun hope my beloved guy is a superman that wanna just stand there if there's lightning. Plea-se, just hide in the building la, we're human =.= . What I mean is kinda a metaphore to the situations that Wall-E and Eva had face and go through and had. Ya, I know, human are all are clever people but sometimes there are some certain people that like to laugh at my words and tease me that I gotta cover up every part of my words. ^^ I labelled them as my friends with the word naughty. XD
Feeling cold now, raining and the room's air cond is .......f-r-e-e-z-i-n-g! Oh ya, I am at KK now.. Might be posting about this soon~
It has been almost 3 months that I'm here.. Honestly, I feel empty and lonely..
First is my studies.. Though I am not reali having any problem however, me being miss piggy-veronica-the-big-lazy-worm, reali is beginning is pulling me down. Again. I am reali one heck of a stone-headed girl. I should have learned my lesson from my STPM moments what it meant to lose a dream. I dunno..how to boost up my spirits.. I just feel empty.. And lonely..
I am having difficulties to fit in too.. As usual.. me with my silly thinking and low confidence self always putting many negative things in my head such as "They dun reali like me to be around" "Maybe I am juz too boring to be hang out with" "There's something with me and my attitudes" and all that.. While most of my peers are having fun with their friends that they found here, either a partner, a group of good friends or a lover, I am..hanging out with myself.. I am not sure who I am in the eyes of others.. I juz feel... I dunno.. Plus, I have just lose someone that is part of my life.. He took away part of me and juz turn away from me. I dunno how to trust anymore. I dunno how to open my heart anymore. People telling me that they wanna be my friends, finally ended up saying bad things behind my back, lovers who said they love me, that said I am special, ended up blaming me for everything.
I am reali beginning to feel everything is my fault. It is all becos of me. It is my fault that I gotta further my studies here, until he told "I need someone to be my side when I need her. Obviously the person is not you. I dun wan you. I dun need you anymore", it is my fault. People dun llike me, it is my fault too. My fault that I am always boring and feels shy and low confidence... I sounded reali like a loser. And it is my fault too, that some people is saying untrue things about me, becos I am the one who make them feel disgusted towards me. Everything is my fault.
Optimism...at first this word is the word that I wanna put into my life when I first started this uni journey of mine. I have changed a lot. I become a bit outspoken in class, I participated in class, unlike the time when I was in my schooling days..always got outshined by the best students, the brilliant students.. While me, always the average one, never the best, never the worse.. I wanna do somthing for myself.. I wanna unlocked who I am inside, of what I am capable of doing.. Things seemed to be good for me.. I thought dun matter what, dun matter how hard or tough life would be for me here, back home, I will have my loved ones, waiting for me. Loving me. Supporting me. I feel energised to explore this new part of my life journey. Then.. a shocked came.. I got dumped.. I got robbed off a part of me. I began to question myself. Began to think who I am. Began to think, many, many things..
I keep wanna cry, heart feels heavy... Sudddenly, promises, smiles, I began to question each of the sincerity, the meaning behind it, the existance of it, of how true and pure of everything and everything.. I started lagging behind.. I neglect my priorities, I became back the quiet girl. Everytime I feel like wanna escape and find somewhere to immersed myself with the loneliness and emptiness and heartache that I am always feeling inside my heart. I hate it.. I hate the negativity. It is eating me up. But I can't seem to run away.
I dun wanna share with anyone else. This is not something for me to share. I dun wan any other person to be affected by my stupid self-destruction actions and behaviour. This is supposed to be the time of our lives, the uni life. Initially, I wanna learn as much, participate as much, gain experience as much, enjoy as much..it's just that I cannot make myself to be that anymore. I dun wan others to be like this too. I wish all of them well...especially in the lack of water condition and all that.. It will be selfish of me to drag others to fall into the black pit.
I dunno who I am anymore. I dunno who I wanna be anymore. I am sick and tired of being used. Of being said untrue things. I just wanna hide. Hide until I die.
I feel so angry. Angry and heart and cheated. You tell me you will be with me till the end. Happy or sad, dun matter what, we will always be alongside each other. You choose to be part of my life. But after I given you part of me, you end everything, juz like that. Then you said all the things, that you wanna end this becos you are suffering, that I am not the person that you wan as I can't be by your side when you needed me. You said you dun wan me. But you continue to call me the names that you used to call me, sayang me like you used to, talk to me as if everything is fine and lovely and sweet. We talked, we laughed, but then you told me, "I dun wan you". Then the next thing I know, you are still doing the things that you used to do. Confusing....
I just gotta stop giving my heart to people. Becos in the end, I will onli get hurt. I dun need sympathy. I dun need any fake smiles. I dun need any false hope. Enough of hurting me.
First is my studies.. Though I am not reali having any problem however, me being miss piggy-veronica-the-big-lazy-worm, reali is beginning is pulling me down. Again. I am reali one heck of a stone-headed girl. I should have learned my lesson from my STPM moments what it meant to lose a dream. I dunno..how to boost up my spirits.. I just feel empty.. And lonely..
I am having difficulties to fit in too.. As usual.. me with my silly thinking and low confidence self always putting many negative things in my head such as "They dun reali like me to be around" "Maybe I am juz too boring to be hang out with" "There's something with me and my attitudes" and all that.. While most of my peers are having fun with their friends that they found here, either a partner, a group of good friends or a lover, I am..hanging out with myself.. I am not sure who I am in the eyes of others.. I juz feel... I dunno.. Plus, I have just lose someone that is part of my life.. He took away part of me and juz turn away from me. I dunno how to trust anymore. I dunno how to open my heart anymore. People telling me that they wanna be my friends, finally ended up saying bad things behind my back, lovers who said they love me, that said I am special, ended up blaming me for everything.
I am reali beginning to feel everything is my fault. It is all becos of me. It is my fault that I gotta further my studies here, until he told "I need someone to be my side when I need her. Obviously the person is not you. I dun wan you. I dun need you anymore", it is my fault. People dun llike me, it is my fault too. My fault that I am always boring and feels shy and low confidence... I sounded reali like a loser. And it is my fault too, that some people is saying untrue things about me, becos I am the one who make them feel disgusted towards me. Everything is my fault.
Optimism...at first this word is the word that I wanna put into my life when I first started this uni journey of mine. I have changed a lot. I become a bit outspoken in class, I participated in class, unlike the time when I was in my schooling days..always got outshined by the best students, the brilliant students.. While me, always the average one, never the best, never the worse.. I wanna do somthing for myself.. I wanna unlocked who I am inside, of what I am capable of doing.. Things seemed to be good for me.. I thought dun matter what, dun matter how hard or tough life would be for me here, back home, I will have my loved ones, waiting for me. Loving me. Supporting me. I feel energised to explore this new part of my life journey. Then.. a shocked came.. I got dumped.. I got robbed off a part of me. I began to question myself. Began to think who I am. Began to think, many, many things..
I keep wanna cry, heart feels heavy... Sudddenly, promises, smiles, I began to question each of the sincerity, the meaning behind it, the existance of it, of how true and pure of everything and everything.. I started lagging behind.. I neglect my priorities, I became back the quiet girl. Everytime I feel like wanna escape and find somewhere to immersed myself with the loneliness and emptiness and heartache that I am always feeling inside my heart. I hate it.. I hate the negativity. It is eating me up. But I can't seem to run away.
I dun wanna share with anyone else. This is not something for me to share. I dun wan any other person to be affected by my stupid self-destruction actions and behaviour. This is supposed to be the time of our lives, the uni life. Initially, I wanna learn as much, participate as much, gain experience as much, enjoy as much..it's just that I cannot make myself to be that anymore. I dun wan others to be like this too. I wish all of them well...especially in the lack of water condition and all that.. It will be selfish of me to drag others to fall into the black pit.
I dunno who I am anymore. I dunno who I wanna be anymore. I am sick and tired of being used. Of being said untrue things. I just wanna hide. Hide until I die.
I feel so angry. Angry and heart and cheated. You tell me you will be with me till the end. Happy or sad, dun matter what, we will always be alongside each other. You choose to be part of my life. But after I given you part of me, you end everything, juz like that. Then you said all the things, that you wanna end this becos you are suffering, that I am not the person that you wan as I can't be by your side when you needed me. You said you dun wan me. But you continue to call me the names that you used to call me, sayang me like you used to, talk to me as if everything is fine and lovely and sweet. We talked, we laughed, but then you told me, "I dun wan you". Then the next thing I know, you are still doing the things that you used to do. Confusing....
I just gotta stop giving my heart to people. Becos in the end, I will onli get hurt. I dun need sympathy. I dun need any fake smiles. I dun need any false hope. Enough of hurting me.
It has been almost two weeks since I step into the ground of Sabah. The first week of the Minggu Suai Mesra is reali =.= to me.. Been walking to and forth from my residential college to the Chancellor Hall. It's about 45 minutes walk at first, then 30, then 20 then finally 15 minutes when I was in my full speed.. LOL!
Nothing much that I wanna elaborate on the orientation week. All I can say that I was so lack of sleep that I can just dozed off in just seconds, in SITTING position. Usually I am an insomniac person, well, it has been cured ever since. LOL..
After the orientation week, we, students from the International Labuan Campus, were transported to Labuan by bus, then ferry us across from mainland to the island then bus again. Total duration of trip? Almost 12 hours.. @.@ Imagine my suffering. At first, I thought since our luggage were transported to the island 2 days before, we would find them safely in our respective rooms. However, another punch hit me again when I found out, with all the exhaustion and desperation, that all our luggage were kept in the committee room which is situated at the first block. And I gotta carry or you can also use drag, two heavily killing luggage to the fourth floor!!! And let me get this clear, it is actually on the 5th floor, it's just that the ground floor is not counted.
My inconveniences:
1. My residential college in Labuan here, is out from the campus, with bus we need about 15 to 20 minutes to reach the campus from here. Try not to imagine us walking... Because it is so IMPOSSIBLE. Those who are staying in the residential college which is situated In the campus, are much easier. They can go to the library, 'Megalab' (computer lab), to lectures, much easier compared to us, whom are staying outside the campus territory.
2. Always out of water supply. Sometimes the water supply seemed so contaminated. Haiz.. SAVE WATER YOU GUYS! ALWAYS APPRECIATE WATER!!!!!!! Look at me now, although I always use water with consideration, at the end I still need to taste the importance of having to save water while to those who do not, are save at home, with sufficient water supply and extra water for them to WASTE!
3. Lack of variation in food choices. Often, either you eat fried rice, or the economical rice or watever rice just so you can keep your spending in budget (well...that is if you guys are as poor as me..)
4. To go to the town, total fare on the bus trips (to and return) is RM6. And the town.. I am reali so speechless about it.. The onli place or wat we say that we are going to a shopping mall is a building in which the called "UK" which means dunno wat U..... Kewangan. Between the U.... Kewangan offices, there are shops like Parkson and watever.. That's all..
5. As the air cooling system in our campus's building needs water, and we are lack of water supply here, we are always got "wash" by our sweats.
6. I NEED A LAPTOP!!! (I am using the computers in our campus 'Megalab' by the way.) HELP! SOS!
7. Although they are some cute guys here, however, too bad, it is the onli entertainment i got. To just count how many cute guys here. LOL... Just Joking!!! Who would believe (to those who known me), that I will spy on guys?! Puh-lease.... *wink* Get what I mean? Confuse? Gre-at!
8. My daily routine will soon be very packed. Now it is in the introductory phase of it.. And honestly.. My head feels like ballooning..
9. The weather here is damn hot and will be in extreme contrast. Reason, it is an island..what do you guys expect? The sea factor-lah!
10. I miss the main campus, it is much better there, environment wise and also the facilities. And I most probably be staying in the campus and not out of it.
11. The seniors.. Most of it... Dunno how to comment on this... @.@ =.= #.# However, there are also good ones..in which, to me.. they are the coolest! Not onli do they need to manage well themselves but also keeping their heads above the water is so not an easy task~ Thumbs up to all of you guys!
To those who is planning to study here, do prepare well and sufficiently. Study is our main priorities.. Dun be defeated by all this "side effects", because at the end of the day if you are able to graduate with success in your hand, you know you stand ahead of the rest. We are the "power" team man. LOL.. To those who are, please dun be "perasan"..I am dedicating the words here to my fellow soon-to-be juniors here..
Despite all quite "terrible side effects" (LOL) , since I am here, I will still wanna continue going on with this journey. Although it seems like a repetitive experience for me (believe me, I have been through much worse than this... National Service, The PJKN camp and watever crap else), I believe my previous experience can help me cope with all these "side effects" while try to excel in my studies.
No photos update yet, as I have forgotten to bring along my phone USB. Wait la.. Lazy to bring also.. ^-^
This might be the 1st post and also the last post for the semester.. Seriously, I have been already lazy to keep track with all my online watever (blog, facebook, friendster, .....), now added along with the need for me to come to the lab everytime I need to use the computer?!! Better i rush back to the hostel and do my work and then to be in my "piggying mode".
Oh ya, one more thing, I think I will be coming back on November. Please, if you can help me, dun speak to me in malay.. Do remember my physical appearances ya although the colour of my skin has change (I PRAY IT WON'T!).
I miss everyone in KL.. Imagine all of you here and play beach ball with me here at our beautiful seaside! Take care all of you! And appreciate and be happy with what you have now. Cheers!
Nothing much that I wanna elaborate on the orientation week. All I can say that I was so lack of sleep that I can just dozed off in just seconds, in SITTING position. Usually I am an insomniac person, well, it has been cured ever since. LOL..
After the orientation week, we, students from the International Labuan Campus, were transported to Labuan by bus, then ferry us across from mainland to the island then bus again. Total duration of trip? Almost 12 hours.. @.@ Imagine my suffering. At first, I thought since our luggage were transported to the island 2 days before, we would find them safely in our respective rooms. However, another punch hit me again when I found out, with all the exhaustion and desperation, that all our luggage were kept in the committee room which is situated at the first block. And I gotta carry or you can also use drag, two heavily killing luggage to the fourth floor!!! And let me get this clear, it is actually on the 5th floor, it's just that the ground floor is not counted.
My inconveniences:
1. My residential college in Labuan here, is out from the campus, with bus we need about 15 to 20 minutes to reach the campus from here. Try not to imagine us walking... Because it is so IMPOSSIBLE. Those who are staying in the residential college which is situated In the campus, are much easier. They can go to the library, 'Megalab' (computer lab), to lectures, much easier compared to us, whom are staying outside the campus territory.
2. Always out of water supply. Sometimes the water supply seemed so contaminated. Haiz.. SAVE WATER YOU GUYS! ALWAYS APPRECIATE WATER!!!!!!! Look at me now, although I always use water with consideration, at the end I still need to taste the importance of having to save water while to those who do not, are save at home, with sufficient water supply and extra water for them to WASTE!
3. Lack of variation in food choices. Often, either you eat fried rice, or the economical rice or watever rice just so you can keep your spending in budget (well...that is if you guys are as poor as me..)
4. To go to the town, total fare on the bus trips (to and return) is RM6. And the town.. I am reali so speechless about it.. The onli place or wat we say that we are going to a shopping mall is a building in which the called "UK" which means dunno wat U..... Kewangan. Between the U.... Kewangan offices, there are shops like Parkson and watever.. That's all..
5. As the air cooling system in our campus's building needs water, and we are lack of water supply here, we are always got "wash" by our sweats.
6. I NEED A LAPTOP!!! (I am using the computers in our campus 'Megalab' by the way.) HELP! SOS!
7. Although they are some cute guys here, however, too bad, it is the onli entertainment i got. To just count how many cute guys here. LOL... Just Joking!!! Who would believe (to those who known me), that I will spy on guys?! Puh-lease.... *wink* Get what I mean? Confuse? Gre-at!
8. My daily routine will soon be very packed. Now it is in the introductory phase of it.. And honestly.. My head feels like ballooning..
9. The weather here is damn hot and will be in extreme contrast. Reason, it is an island..what do you guys expect? The sea factor-lah!
10. I miss the main campus, it is much better there, environment wise and also the facilities. And I most probably be staying in the campus and not out of it.
11. The seniors.. Most of it... Dunno how to comment on this... @.@ =.= #.# However, there are also good ones..in which, to me.. they are the coolest! Not onli do they need to manage well themselves but also keeping their heads above the water is so not an easy task~ Thumbs up to all of you guys!
To those who is planning to study here, do prepare well and sufficiently. Study is our main priorities.. Dun be defeated by all this "side effects", because at the end of the day if you are able to graduate with success in your hand, you know you stand ahead of the rest. We are the "power" team man. LOL.. To those who are, please dun be "perasan"..I am dedicating the words here to my fellow soon-to-be juniors here..
Despite all quite "terrible side effects" (LOL) , since I am here, I will still wanna continue going on with this journey. Although it seems like a repetitive experience for me (believe me, I have been through much worse than this... National Service, The PJKN camp and watever crap else), I believe my previous experience can help me cope with all these "side effects" while try to excel in my studies.
No photos update yet, as I have forgotten to bring along my phone USB. Wait la.. Lazy to bring also.. ^-^
This might be the 1st post and also the last post for the semester.. Seriously, I have been already lazy to keep track with all my online watever (blog, facebook, friendster, .....), now added along with the need for me to come to the lab everytime I need to use the computer?!! Better i rush back to the hostel and do my work and then to be in my "piggying mode".
Oh ya, one more thing, I think I will be coming back on November. Please, if you can help me, dun speak to me in malay.. Do remember my physical appearances ya although the colour of my skin has change (I PRAY IT WON'T!).
I miss everyone in KL.. Imagine all of you here and play beach ball with me here at our beautiful seaside! Take care all of you! And appreciate and be happy with what you have now. Cheers!
Yup, yup, yup... Can you see the Labuan Island on the left side of Sabah mainland? There is where I will be heading... Ya, Wilayah Persekutuan Labuan..LOL... My campus will be there, by the seaside. It is quite ironic as my former national service camp, which is situated at Kota Belud, Sabah, is also by the seaside.. LOL...
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